Sunday 19th February 2017
I have thought for a few days about this blog. The final online chapter. The final piece of my inner soul that I'm baring to the "world". How do I now close the book?
I have now read back every blog I've written. Some have been harder than others to read and some I barely remember writing... But each one has reminded me that whilst I am a strong person, I could not have made it through the last year without the support I have found in family and friends, old and new. Am I glad I wrote this? Well, whilst it has been emotional in a way to read the last year in black and white, I have loved seeing my journey...
Have I forgiven?
No.
Have I forgotten?
No.
Those people who say you have to, to be able to move on, well that may be true for them but not for me. What I have done is accept what happened. It was what it was. I dealt with each blow, each high and each low.
I have learnt so much this last year, I have experienced so much more of what life has to offer if you just look up and keep going.
I'm not going to make this a long final blog, I've laid so much bare already. I'm not going to name everyone who's been amazing this last year, you all know who you are. My family, my friends, my love..., you all mean the world to me.
I will say this, on February 15th 2016 I could never have imagined my life would be where it is now. I could never have imagined having a smile on my face and a constant song in my heart. I could never imagine that despite the distance I'd feel closer to my Yorkshire life than ever. I never imagined that I would find such lovely friendship and laughter with these Southern folk! And I couldn't have dreamt of finding a man who in every way is a missing piece from my jigsaw of life. It's simple, it's easy and I love him through to the very core of who he is.
If you are going through something right now, my only piece of advice is to keep going, never give in, never give up and truly when it's dark, look for stars.
So the final page turns, the scene ends and the curtains fall. Did I find a happy ending? No. Because my lovelies, this is just the beginning... The beginning again...
Lini xx
No.
Have I forgotten?
No.
Those people who say you have to, to be able to move on, well that may be true for them but not for me. What I have done is accept what happened. It was what it was. I dealt with each blow, each high and each low.
I have learnt so much this last year, I have experienced so much more of what life has to offer if you just look up and keep going.
I'm not going to make this a long final blog, I've laid so much bare already. I'm not going to name everyone who's been amazing this last year, you all know who you are. My family, my friends, my love..., you all mean the world to me.
I will say this, on February 15th 2016 I could never have imagined my life would be where it is now. I could never have imagined having a smile on my face and a constant song in my heart. I could never imagine that despite the distance I'd feel closer to my Yorkshire life than ever. I never imagined that I would find such lovely friendship and laughter with these Southern folk! And I couldn't have dreamt of finding a man who in every way is a missing piece from my jigsaw of life. It's simple, it's easy and I love him through to the very core of who he is.
If you are going through something right now, my only piece of advice is to keep going, never give in, never give up and truly when it's dark, look for stars.
So the final page turns, the scene ends and the curtains fall. Did I find a happy ending? No. Because my lovelies, this is just the beginning... The beginning again...
